So for starters, day one wasnt so bad. The only thing I think I goofed up, was when instead of doing my research before heading out on the road all evening, to figure out what I could eat on the go, I just opted to not eat. Probably not my most intelligent moment...but I survived, and managed to stay away from refined sugar/flour for 24 hours! My head has been pounding off and on now for 2 days, and I am craving a Coke like no body's business...but I have kept it under control.
Day two has been pretty great so far. This time, when I knew I was going out to lunch, I did my homework, and instead of not eating, I just ordered chicken fajita nachos, hold the chips :) And to my delight, it was actually PERFECT! I didnt feel like I was missing out at all! (Other than missing out on a Coke, that is)
Back at the office, while everyone else was enjoying the chocolates courtesy of a patient (this may prove to be tough to refrain from) I was going crazy inside wanting to partake...So I rummaged the cupboards, and found some Premium Dark Chocolate (85% Cocoa) and saw that it only has 4g of sugar for a whole bar! So, I tasted a bite of it (thinking if the whole bar is only 4g then a bite or two should be okay for today--the Diet said I could do it, so dont judge me for eating it on day 2) And it was HORRIBLE!!! It tasted like DIRT! But then, a co-worker said that dark chocolate is "meant to be eaten slowly" so I tried that...not much better...and then I had the bright idea to try adding a sprinkle of sea salt to it and Wala! It was great! Not what I can foresee myself ever "craving", but its a great solution to my need for chocolate at the moment.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Bye Bye sugar, Hello Mood swings!
I've decided that if I am ever going to become the "Mom I've dreamed of being" I should probably start taking the steps necessary for sticking around on the planet for a while. Almost every woman goes through the "Ughhh, I hate the way I look in pictures" moment...but surprisingly, I think a lot of us never realize that that's how we ACTUALLY look in real life!! I think that moment came for me today.
I clinically have low blood sugar, and for some reason, after I got that diagnosis two years ago, I suddenly saw it as an opportunity to go crazy with my sugar addiction! Since that time, I have gained nearly 30 lbs. and man is it obvious! Now, if you were to take away the pictures and mirrors, I would have naturally said that I haven't changed much...but I have, I was just in denial about it.
So day one of "becoming the mom" starts tomorrow morning at 830. I will walk into my office, and promptly empty my desk drawers of their toxic content into the trash bin. No more bags of Red Jelly beans (Yes, I said "Bags"--you know, Easter candy isn't available all year round, so I had stocked up for the long haul) No more Ziploc bag of chocolate chips (I am laughing at myself at this point...Who actually does that?! Chocolate chips in a desk drawer??) No more Zebra Cakes, and no more Cokes. I will not be asking our in office Barista (aka. Appointment Scheduler) to make me her famous hot chocolate with whipped cream, I will not accept the goodie bags or chocolate from patients and Imaging center Reps. I will stay committed to my plan, why? Because of her. Not for me, because I have tried that and failed miserably a hundred times. But if I want to be that awesome mommy, that I have dreams of becoming...then the first priority is staying alive, and healthy. So tomorrow marks day one of "becoming" for me. Immediate family and co-workers may want to get a helmet...this may be a rough ride for me and you both!
I clinically have low blood sugar, and for some reason, after I got that diagnosis two years ago, I suddenly saw it as an opportunity to go crazy with my sugar addiction! Since that time, I have gained nearly 30 lbs. and man is it obvious! Now, if you were to take away the pictures and mirrors, I would have naturally said that I haven't changed much...but I have, I was just in denial about it.
So day one of "becoming the mom" starts tomorrow morning at 830. I will walk into my office, and promptly empty my desk drawers of their toxic content into the trash bin. No more bags of Red Jelly beans (Yes, I said "Bags"--you know, Easter candy isn't available all year round, so I had stocked up for the long haul) No more Ziploc bag of chocolate chips (I am laughing at myself at this point...Who actually does that?! Chocolate chips in a desk drawer??) No more Zebra Cakes, and no more Cokes. I will not be asking our in office Barista (aka. Appointment Scheduler) to make me her famous hot chocolate with whipped cream, I will not accept the goodie bags or chocolate from patients and Imaging center Reps. I will stay committed to my plan, why? Because of her. Not for me, because I have tried that and failed miserably a hundred times. But if I want to be that awesome mommy, that I have dreams of becoming...then the first priority is staying alive, and healthy. So tomorrow marks day one of "becoming" for me. Immediate family and co-workers may want to get a helmet...this may be a rough ride for me and you both!
Why?
I am a mom. I have one daughter who is the light of my life. I never knew it could be possible to love someone so incredibly much until she came into my life. I loved her before I even laid eyes on her. She is my motivation for so many wonderful things in life.
As I mom, I am constantly thinking of things that I wish I could do or be. There are days that I see other moms posting things to facebook that make me instantly annoyed with them, because they have just "Shown me up" as a mom. There are days that I sit in self pity, because I WISH I had the opportunity to stay at home with my daughter, to play with her all day, teach her neat things, and focus ONLY on being a mommy instead of having a career. There are times that I watch other moms who make being a mommy look like a fantastic fun and thrilling experience, and others who couldnt look more miserable. All of these things have gotten me thinking that I need to stop "wanting to be a mom like that" and actually taking the steps to become the mom I've dreamed of being.
There are a million and one ways that I need to be better as a mom. And through this blog, I hope to keep myself accountable, learn from my mistakes, grow in knowledge, and work at becoming that mom.
As I mom, I am constantly thinking of things that I wish I could do or be. There are days that I see other moms posting things to facebook that make me instantly annoyed with them, because they have just "Shown me up" as a mom. There are days that I sit in self pity, because I WISH I had the opportunity to stay at home with my daughter, to play with her all day, teach her neat things, and focus ONLY on being a mommy instead of having a career. There are times that I watch other moms who make being a mommy look like a fantastic fun and thrilling experience, and others who couldnt look more miserable. All of these things have gotten me thinking that I need to stop "wanting to be a mom like that" and actually taking the steps to become the mom I've dreamed of being.
There are a million and one ways that I need to be better as a mom. And through this blog, I hope to keep myself accountable, learn from my mistakes, grow in knowledge, and work at becoming that mom.
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